dreamingyournitemare

hmm. well. I'm not entirely sure i've got much to say, other than I am still very much alive, and very much still attempting-and-mostly-failing at writing anything of value. my life is infinitely better than it was at this point last year, i've gone through several boys and learned that i can be content without constant chaos. i am no longer bitter, and that is glorious.

so i seem to have dropped off the face of the earth, but with good reason. december has been awful and crazy, and i am SO glad it's nearly over. in the past 28 days, i've had to deal with being kicked out of my house, living with my best friend until being kicked out of there too and being homeless, then losing said best friend because her old foster mother was a bitch, dealing with the three year anniversary of an oh so tragic event that happened in my past, dealing with the first christmas without my ex boyfriend or my baby, and dealing with cop and guidance counselor bullshit because of oh so tragic event from my past. lets just say, a shi

so. the old new boy tarren was a mistake, and i do not think i ever liked him. but the new new boy blaine has a preeeeetty damn good chance.  he's kind of all the things that i like in my almost sort of on a break boyfriend and all the things i like about my best friend sammy, just minus all the shitty parts :D and onto the issue of my almost sort of on a break boyfriend. we broke up for like, 8 days, and then got back together, and as of this morning we aare on a break because i need to figure out my feelings about blaine, and figure out weather or not the relationship with the asob boyfriend is worth continuing or not. so all in all, this